Monday, December 20, 2010

I need to get better at this!

Sometimes I feel like I blast my whole life out there! I feel like I am talking, but I am not saying much :).

Anyway, we have had a lot going on. I recently took a job at Longview Police Department....and I start on Monday. The reality of it has started to set in, and I sometimes feel warm and fuzzy as I quietly, secretly, freak the heck out! I then think, "What have I done?" LOL! But, in the middle of this emotion, I am so stoked I cannot believe it is finally here. I will miss my friends at the District Attorney's Office, and I know it will be an adjustment for my family, but I know that there is a reason, a path, that God is leading me down. I will meet this challenge head on, just like everything else I have accomplished.

When your scared saddle up anyway! Thank John Wayne.

Any hizzle, Christmas is breathing down my neck. This year we decided to do it about 4 days early so Jag-mister could have plenty of time to play with his stuff. Ok, I'll admit that is every kids dream is to break their parents down so they can open their presents before time, but I feel guilty! It is going to be lonely on Christmas, because Jagger will most likely stay at his moms that day so he can also experience the plastic goodness that he got there too. :) He leaves for Missouri, so he isn't complaining about the early unwrapping.

Lastly, my mom introduced me to a friend of hers that we ran into in a store. She later explained his situation, and it is grim. Without posting too much, he probably has an income of 1/4 of what most of us bring home a month, and has kids that he is caring for on his own. He STILL tithes every month. I have never been so touched by just a 5 minute conversation in my life. It makes me sick to my stomach to know people basically throw away what he gets every month....for what? Internet? TV? Cell phones? Hair? Nails? But when it comes to giving to the church, we will "make it up next month" or "we will see what we have left" NO! Give first, the rest will take care of itself, and if it doesn't, then you don't need it! I need to listen to my own advice. I will admit it.

Well, good night....the Golden Girls are on......